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Good (Hard) Grief & Deconstructing (Grace & Space from the Deconstructing Mamas)

Who knew that when we asked our first question about the faith that was either handed down to us or we grabbed onto with all our might when someone shared the "good news," there would be so much loss associated with it. We were just asking a question, right? We were just pulling back the curtain to see what was going on behind there, right? But here we are, and one question turned into another and another and another, and we perhaps find ourselves with more questions than answers and the curtain has not only been pulled back, it's laying on the floor torn into shreds and what was going on behind there is exposed every which way. And the loss, the incredible loss that's hopped along with the questions and the torn curtain, is something that perhaps has surprised us (or maybe not so much). But it's there none-the-less. We are left with the loss of community, friendship, even family relationships, respect, certainty, all the things that held us for so long.

And the searing grief that comes with losing all of these things, it feels like, in one fell swoop, is something we find ourselves surprised by, pummeled by or just hovering under the surface ready to make it's way out at the most inopportune times or ways (like in the shower or into our pillow or an outburst at a family reunion or on social media). We, your favorite podcast hostesses in the whole wide world, Lizz and Esther, kick Season Two off with a bang diving deep into their own losses (that might sound eerily similar to yours) and the painful, messy, necessary process of grief that is going right along with it. The "ride" airs on Tuesday, September 13.



Latest News: Esther on the Dessert Sanctuary Podcast

If you can't wait until tomorrow and you want to listen to Esther right this minute, she was interviewed about her own wild and crazy and hope-filled deconstruction journey on an incredible podcast called the Dessert Sanctuary with Karl and Laura Forehand, a former pastor and his wife (ugh...hate even saying that out loud..."pastor's wife"...all the hard parts that go along with that). Esther walks through what it means to be pushed by fear for her whole life and now her hope to being led by love, especially in the sacred space where our hearts intertwine with our homes. Find out what she answers to these ever-important questions: What are you left with after you deconstruct? What is true religion and spirituality to you? It's on all the platforms, but here are some options for a direct click: SPOTIFY

Our Private Facebook Community Don't forget to sign up for our private and exclusive Deconstructing Mamas community on Facebook for those of you who want to move to the next level with us via our Patreon platform.

DIPPING YOUR TOES At this level, for as little as $3, you can ask questions, experience a safe and welcoming community with others who are deconstructing and receive special surprises along the way from Lizz and Esther.

You will also have access to our private Youtube podcast videos that are solely for Patreon supporters (coming soon). Head to this LINK to sign up!!



Our weekly shoutout goes to Karl and Laura Forehand's latest, award-winning book. I, Esther, have read the first chapter so far and was like, "YES YES YES!" Here's what I read at the very end of Chapter One (made me want to read more)... "I surround myself with love and courage to grow into the best version of myself. Becoming the best version of myself, I am able to love those around me in an authentic way that has the power to shape the world." GET THE BOOK HERE!!


We want to again remind you that we are so glad you are here. We wouldn't be the same without you. You will always find GRACE for where you've been and who you are now, and SPACE for who you are becoming and will be.

Carry on, our new-found friends. Welcome to the twisty-windy, full -of-adventure faith path that's laid out before us all. Love,

Lizz & Esther

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